Tuesday, March 19, 2013
My sweet princess Linnea,
It is 1:55pm March 19, 2013. Last year this day at this time the minutes could not go by fast enough!! I was eagerly awaiting the very moment we were to meet you for the first time. I will never forget the moment you and your tiny body with your skinny little legs walked toward me and I scooped you up into my arms. In just one moment our lives were both forever changed. I look at you and I am in awe. In awe of the trust that you have for your daddy and I. A year ago we were complete strangers - and not just strangers but strangers that didn't even look like you. Today I am no longer a stranger - I am your mama. While your communication is clearly underdeveloped and you are severely delayed in your speech - you say mama so clearly it makes my heart leap thinking about it. You also say daddy, nay nay (Nathan), nu nee (Luke) eee (Ethan) and Ab bee (Abbie) - you know your family.
Oh my sweet girl as I sit here and watch you play the transformations that have taken place in your little life are amazing. I cannot adequately express the emotions I am feeling today so I won't begin to even try. What I want you to know more than anything else is this ~ it is my prayer that regardless of what challenges lie ahead - you will know that you were created by a Holy and Perfect Father who loves you far more than I ever could. I pray that you come to understand just how much He loves you and that He is sovereign in ALL things. I pray you love Him with your whole heart. He CAN do the unimaginable!! I have seen it - I have seen evidences of His faithfulness time and time again and I pray you too will be able to one day see.
You have changed me. Changed me in ways I could have never imagined - ways I didn't even know needed changing. God has used you to remind me of my own transformation and my utter and total dependence upon Him. I am so thankful He chose me to be your mommy. You are a gift.
I love you so much,